This may come as a bit of a shock to some of you, but words aren't often something I have problems with. I may be an introvert, but I have PLENTY of words. Now, they may not always be expressed verbally, but that doesn't mean they aren't there. And now that I have a place to write them...holy cow! It seems like they should just flow like water.
But that isn't the case tonight. I've sat staring blankly at the screen for several minutes, trying to figure out how to put into words the mix of emotions in my heart. Tonight was Zach's and my 'Bon Voyage' party, and it has left me speechless. In fact, tonight seemed like the culmination of a week of being left 'speechless'. Being loved is a powerful thing, but being told how much you are loved, being shown it in a million ways, both big and small, is breath-taking. Thinking you might have 'helped' is nice, but knowing without a doubt that God has used you to change not just a 'place' but lives is astonishing. To know that your seemingly small life has mattered to those around you is something that no words can ever capture.
So, as I sit and ponder those things...rolling over those beautiful moments, those precious conversations, all the hugs, all the tears I'm left remembering the very wise advice a very wise person once told me..."if there are no words, let the silence speak for you". And so I will....
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