"Half-way"

Multi-tasking. It's something I normally pride myself on. For those of you who have ever walked into my office, you're well aware of my love of "many things at once". My computer has two monitors attached to it and I generally have at least 3 things going at once. I've been known to make people nauseous bouncing back and forth between windows (Photoshop...Firefox...other Firefox...Illustrator...InDesign...back to Firefox....Desktop...Photoshop again). I usually thrive on it, ideas roll like waves crashing onto the shore as I bounce from window to window.

But not today. The multi-tasking side of my brain seems to be broken. Well, ok, maybe not broken...I think it's just finally become completely overloaded. A startling feat for me. But, nevertheless, here it is...complete mental shutdown. I've been working on the same simple project (a new poster for the next series at Woodcrest) for the better part of 3 hours and am no closer to completion than I was 3 hours ago. As I stare at my half-finished poster, I'm left contemplating the current 'half-finished' state of my life. Stuck in limbo somewhere between Missouri and Minnesota...half-way between what's "safe" and what's "scary".

"Half-way" isn't very fun. Our house has been rented, but we're still living in it. I've applied for a new job (House Manager for Bethel's 1400 seat auditorium) but am still working at my old one. We've paid rent on our new apartment, but don't have a single thing inside of it. I've even managed to only turn on half the utilities at our new place. Living a "half-way" life is not something I enjoy. But I guess, in retrospect, that's part of the reason for this move. I can't bring myself to live a "half-way" life. "Half-way" doing what God wants, "half-way" doing what I believe God created me to do.

So I'll hunker down and push through. I'll finish my poster (even if it's not the most stellar work I've ever done). We'll get our house packed and moved (and the utilities turned on...A/C is good). I'll eventually say good-bye to my "old" job and hopefully hello to my "new" one and I'll continue to hope that somewhere along the way my multi-tasking, ADD brain will find it's way back home. I guess it doesn't like living a "half-way" life either.